Anscetors Mandala

June 25, 2013

6.23.2013 ~Joshua Tree

I’ve come to this place deep inside me where it feels like there is thorn or block obstructing the flow of life’s greatest gifts and rewards.  I kept sensing dispar or just wanting to quit….everything.  I’m tired of doing, being active, taking action to move life along for the sake of accomplishment and success.  My committment to my dreams, projects and circles was waning.  Motivation weakening.  Inspiration becoming cynical.

I have everything to be grateful for.  My dome home is upon completion, my drum medicine continues momentum and friends, family and romance  are flourishing…the message I kept hearing was “Let go and allow.  Surrender.  Let go, let go, let go.”  Such an uncomfortable place in my psyche, body and soul.

Mini rituals alleviate  the angst…on with it…..let it go!!!!  Praying, meditating, calling on associates to reveal a message on my behalf led me to this message from the Ancestors.

“And so, the dream came true. What say you NOW Goddess?”

We say our Heart’s Desire, this dream, is nothing more than our ecstatic elation born from imagination. We imagined so much more and thought all we had to do is dream it awake. It’s a bit uncomfortable as the dream continues to reveal itself. Especially uncomfortble in the allowing for revalations.

“This is the growth of our humanity’s journey. What will you do NOW Goddess?”

We give up!

 

Ancestors Mandala

 

 

In this moment, I give up!  I surrender. I let go.  This is what the moment is calling for NOW and from this I am reminded that giving up IS being alive.

To be alive is a birth rite that we all embody.  Embody this rite; show up, be accountable and present. Being present, most of all, is the acknowledgment of being alive.

WE GIVE UP AND WE ARE ALIVE!!

 

 

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XI Strength

March 28, 2012

 

March 28, 2012

XI Strength

What a glorious life I lead.

(“I feel scared”)

Waking to what seems to perpetual sunny days.

(“I don’t want to get out of bed”)

Enjoying the freedom the kitties have in this expansive desert .

(“Next life time, I’m going to be a cat”)

Barefoot on the land.

(**sigh**)

Sharing the love of community…..building with the Earth….shaping our Dreams into form.

(“Sometimes I just need my own time and space”)

Talking circle before we begin our day ignites transparency to hold me accountable.

(“Overwhelm, fear…emotional purging”)

Stone of Gratitude passed around the circle.

(“Thank you, thank you, thank you!”)

Tears, laughter.

(“The beauty of Talking Circle”)

Where are my shoes?

(“funny crew”)

Where is my hat?

(“funny, funny crew!”)

I draw a card from the MotherPeace deck:  XI Strength

(“Lady of the Beast, she who tames through sheer spritual force.”)

 

sheer spiritual force

Her Water Broke

February 7, 2012

I find it quite uncanny that the coulds seem to roll in when I soak a full elk or deer hides in water in preparation for making drums.   The process begins with i
immersing an elk or deer hide into a large barrel of water.  Then the hard, dry hide will begin to hydrate into a soft, pliable skin.

Blessing the Hides

The more I reflected back on the last decade in honoring this sacred craft that works with such a powerful animal, it either rains during the time of preparation or during the time of actual crafting the drums.  The last spurt of drum making in October, Coyote howled in the distance as the hides began to surrender to the water and the following day the Thunder Beings made themselves present while I was cutting hides at a location called Rabbit Run.  Quite an appropriate name during an oncoming Thunder storm!!
I’ve been asked if I get creep out by handling the wet skin of an animal after it has soaked up the water and begins to smell of primal life.  Funny….I hadn’t thought about it until the question was posed to me and upon reflection I get a bit of a charge of life reborn and my creativity begins to awaken once again.
So, as I craft and prepare for drum making in this timing of 2012, in the tradition of the Quero Apache, the first full moon of the year was Black Water Dragon  greeting us into a New Reality.  I will be soaking hides tonight after I complete this writing and there are clouds in the distant mountains.
“We prepare for the births that will carry our heartfire into the depths of true nature.  Water flows brings the activation.”
***I  invite you to visit the Indian Store in Vista on Feburary 18, 2012 from 12pm to 5pmish where I will be preparing hides, lace and hoops.***

In Gratitude and Love,

Lisa

in a windswept deseert

January 10, 2012

moments of bliss be
come distant memories as
time passes the sand 

Wind swept desert at sunset

 

 

As the events of this New Year’s past, I find myself reaching and almost gripping onto the memories of  ceremony and song.  In the twilight of this mornings sleep, I try to hide in the slumber to continue the Dream where my Soul and Spirit thrive.  Time and Space move out of illusion once again.

” When the wind blows its mighty gusts of change and kiss the cheeks of Mamma, the sand particle is windswept onto its renewed journey.”

I am reminded that in one breath and in one mighty exhale a new journey has begun.  Welcome….once again.

 

 

Reality or Projection

January 2, 2012

I have just spent the past four weeks in the North East.  A very dense and populated landscape of urban life with pockets respite along the Long Island Sound and small suburb parks.

Upon my arrival, it seemed that there was a mass of zombie like energy glazed upon the faces and bodies of those whom I encountered and the dense heaviness of  darkness of winter weighed thick in the air.  A big contrast to the desert in the South West full of sunlight and winds of cleansing change.  Bright and fresh.

Daily practice of yoga, meditation and salt scrub showers kept my Spirit light yet as time grew closer to the Winter Solstice on December 21st and my birthday on December 23rd, my shadow grew and began to weigh me down.   Dragging my shadow along for the inevitable ride, I sought out a place of refuge, a metaphysical bookstore.  This is where my journey back to the LIGHT began.

I was invited to a ceremony that was to be held in New York City facilitated with the traditions and medicines that called to my heart for the last decade, the Apache and the Huichol.  Spirit orchestrated the timing, as Spirit always does and on New Years Eve I found myself in a Tipi in a small park in the Bronx.  All time and space disappeared as the fire was tended, songs and prayers were sung and the Sacred was revered authentically in a Good Ways.

The next morning, on January 1, 2012, the Sun was bright and warm (unusual for this area this time of year).  I soaked more Light into my already open and filled Heartspace  on the 12th floor balcony of a highrise apartment building.   Greeted by Hawk, the message came from the question:

Is this glorious sun shiny day a projection of the Light that is in my Heart?  Are we that powerful?

Lighting up the City, Stamford CT 1/2/12

“We Come Together with All that is Good.  We hold Sacred Space in ways that have been passed on to us and for the future generations.  We have entered a time where we have the potential to manifest our true heart’s desires in an instant.   Believe in the power of  your Spirit.  The journey is what you choose it to be.  The Spirits of those who came before and those to come join you in Divine Orchestration.”

In that moment, in awe of the view before me; the city skyline showered by a bright Sun,  it occurred to me that scene before me might be a Projection of my own current experience….so much so that nature and the elements responded with a glorious, warm, sun shiny day.

I began to wonder, is this the simple Reality of a Beautiful day?  Or is this a Projection of the immense Light that is shining from our Hearts?

Journal Entry

December 28, 2011

****the winds of change are howling….i can hear the momentum building in the far distance….coming upon us like a heard of wild horses*****

Stamford Museum and Nature Center December 31, 2011

Just Show Up

September 26, 2011

September 26, 2011

Joshua Tree, 10:13 am

This past weekend I took myself on an adventure into the unknown with my only compass being “just show up”.  There, I met my family and friends and, in between, Spirit and nature reflected back the impact of our contributions.

This is a Love Note I wrote to all of those whom participated in the etchings of alignment and harmony into my grateful heart this past weekend***

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Like a child, I am remain in awe as the magic of divine orchestration has its way with us when our simplest expression is to just show up.
Since we met and have been in each others lives I have reached the true depths of meeting myself intimately and this past weekend with you was yet another experience that revealed how much our journey is of One Heart.  The continual evolution, growth and expansion of our glorious selves was/is continually confirmed as all of our senses are ignited when I look into your eyes, hug you, receive a massage from you, listen to you, speak my pain with you, catch up with you, see you, drum journey with you, laugh with you, wake up with you, receive your healing gifts, see and acknowledge your beauty and sexiness, cry with you, eat good food with you, hear your wisdom, receive your generosity, dance with you and be in love with you.

Last night I dreamt of Orb Weaver Spiders…..

Love of One Heart

In more ways than one
Coming together to weave
Spirals of desire

~Lisa Starr


I love you and may we continue to empower each other with Happiness; the vital force for good health and good life!
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orb and a spiral weave