Anscetors Mandala

June 25, 2013

6.23.2013 ~Joshua Tree

I’ve come to this place deep inside me where it feels like there is thorn or block obstructing the flow of life’s greatest gifts and rewards.  I kept sensing dispar or just wanting to quit….everything.  I’m tired of doing, being active, taking action to move life along for the sake of accomplishment and success.  My committment to my dreams, projects and circles was waning.  Motivation weakening.  Inspiration becoming cynical.

I have everything to be grateful for.  My dome home is upon completion, my drum medicine continues momentum and friends, family and romance  are flourishing…the message I kept hearing was “Let go and allow.  Surrender.  Let go, let go, let go.”  Such an uncomfortable place in my psyche, body and soul.

Mini rituals alleviate  the angst…on with it…..let it go!!!!  Praying, meditating, calling on associates to reveal a message on my behalf led me to this message from the Ancestors.

“And so, the dream came true. What say you NOW Goddess?”

We say our Heart’s Desire, this dream, is nothing more than our ecstatic elation born from imagination. We imagined so much more and thought all we had to do is dream it awake. It’s a bit uncomfortable as the dream continues to reveal itself. Especially uncomfortble in the allowing for revalations.

“This is the growth of our humanity’s journey. What will you do NOW Goddess?”

We give up!

 

Ancestors Mandala

 

 

In this moment, I give up!  I surrender. I let go.  This is what the moment is calling for NOW and from this I am reminded that giving up IS being alive.

To be alive is a birth rite that we all embody.  Embody this rite; show up, be accountable and present. Being present, most of all, is the acknowledgment of being alive.

WE GIVE UP AND WE ARE ALIVE!!

 

 

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Birthing it easy

October 15, 2012

Birthing  Easy
October 14, 2012
As we approach and enter this time in humanities evolution, the cosmos and prophecies of potent spiritual cultures say that we are stepping into our fullest potential of who we are to become. All that we aspire to be and want to bring to our children, our communities and the world is happening now. This is the time when what no longer serves us must be let go. For if not, our true essence of who we are that is emerging with great force to LIVE, will emerge with more discomfort.

Sometimes I think I may have taken on more than I can handle and get tired of being part of the “strong and inspiring” dream club. Doing life my way and out of the box only to follow my heart’s desires and Spirits calling ***breathe*** is the only way I continue to find the peace within.

How do we find the endurance that called us to the dream we are meant to meet?

Let us make it easy on ourselves. Do our work to LET IT GO. Walk into nature and appreciate the beauty of life. Seek support from someone who may simply hold your head on their shoulder and let you cry. Light a candle and take a bath. Do something wonderful for ourselves!!!
Seek the silence between the beats and pray, meditate, walk and listen for the stillness.

Peace Within~18" elk hide, cedar hoop, sterling silver, abolone shell

Peace Within~18″ elk hide, cedar hoop, sterling silver, abalone shell

This is the Peace that is born from letting go.

i got scared

July 13, 2012

July 11, 2012

i got scared

i got so scared

working numbers

digits

i got so scared

cause it wasn’t adding

up

i  got so scared

about it being

enough

i got so scared

i cried out for

help

i got so scared

i heard “pull yourself

together”

i  got so scared

and remembered to

pray

I got so scared

even though it’s all a

lie

XI Strength

March 28, 2012

 

March 28, 2012

XI Strength

What a glorious life I lead.

(“I feel scared”)

Waking to what seems to perpetual sunny days.

(“I don’t want to get out of bed”)

Enjoying the freedom the kitties have in this expansive desert .

(“Next life time, I’m going to be a cat”)

Barefoot on the land.

(**sigh**)

Sharing the love of community…..building with the Earth….shaping our Dreams into form.

(“Sometimes I just need my own time and space”)

Talking circle before we begin our day ignites transparency to hold me accountable.

(“Overwhelm, fear…emotional purging”)

Stone of Gratitude passed around the circle.

(“Thank you, thank you, thank you!”)

Tears, laughter.

(“The beauty of Talking Circle”)

Where are my shoes?

(“funny crew”)

Where is my hat?

(“funny, funny crew!”)

I draw a card from the MotherPeace deck:  XI Strength

(“Lady of the Beast, she who tames through sheer spritual force.”)

 

sheer spiritual force

Her Water Broke

February 7, 2012

I find it quite uncanny that the coulds seem to roll in when I soak a full elk or deer hides in water in preparation for making drums.   The process begins with i
immersing an elk or deer hide into a large barrel of water.  Then the hard, dry hide will begin to hydrate into a soft, pliable skin.

Blessing the Hides

The more I reflected back on the last decade in honoring this sacred craft that works with such a powerful animal, it either rains during the time of preparation or during the time of actual crafting the drums.  The last spurt of drum making in October, Coyote howled in the distance as the hides began to surrender to the water and the following day the Thunder Beings made themselves present while I was cutting hides at a location called Rabbit Run.  Quite an appropriate name during an oncoming Thunder storm!!
I’ve been asked if I get creep out by handling the wet skin of an animal after it has soaked up the water and begins to smell of primal life.  Funny….I hadn’t thought about it until the question was posed to me and upon reflection I get a bit of a charge of life reborn and my creativity begins to awaken once again.
So, as I craft and prepare for drum making in this timing of 2012, in the tradition of the Quero Apache, the first full moon of the year was Black Water Dragon  greeting us into a New Reality.  I will be soaking hides tonight after I complete this writing and there are clouds in the distant mountains.
“We prepare for the births that will carry our heartfire into the depths of true nature.  Water flows brings the activation.”
***I  invite you to visit the Indian Store in Vista on Feburary 18, 2012 from 12pm to 5pmish where I will be preparing hides, lace and hoops.***

In Gratitude and Love,

Lisa

in a windswept deseert

January 10, 2012

moments of bliss be
come distant memories as
time passes the sand 

Wind swept desert at sunset

 

 

As the events of this New Year’s past, I find myself reaching and almost gripping onto the memories of  ceremony and song.  In the twilight of this mornings sleep, I try to hide in the slumber to continue the Dream where my Soul and Spirit thrive.  Time and Space move out of illusion once again.

” When the wind blows its mighty gusts of change and kiss the cheeks of Mamma, the sand particle is windswept onto its renewed journey.”

I am reminded that in one breath and in one mighty exhale a new journey has begun.  Welcome….once again.

 

 

Journal Entry

December 28, 2011

****the winds of change are howling….i can hear the momentum building in the far distance….coming upon us like a heard of wild horses*****

Stamford Museum and Nature Center December 31, 2011