Anscetors Mandala

June 25, 2013

6.23.2013 ~Joshua Tree

I’ve come to this place deep inside me where it feels like there is thorn or block obstructing the flow of life’s greatest gifts and rewards.  I kept sensing dispar or just wanting to quit….everything.  I’m tired of doing, being active, taking action to move life along for the sake of accomplishment and success.  My committment to my dreams, projects and circles was waning.  Motivation weakening.  Inspiration becoming cynical.

I have everything to be grateful for.  My dome home is upon completion, my drum medicine continues momentum and friends, family and romance  are flourishing…the message I kept hearing was “Let go and allow.  Surrender.  Let go, let go, let go.”  Such an uncomfortable place in my psyche, body and soul.

Mini rituals alleviate  the angst…on with it…..let it go!!!!  Praying, meditating, calling on associates to reveal a message on my behalf led me to this message from the Ancestors.

“And so, the dream came true. What say you NOW Goddess?”

We say our Heart’s Desire, this dream, is nothing more than our ecstatic elation born from imagination. We imagined so much more and thought all we had to do is dream it awake. It’s a bit uncomfortable as the dream continues to reveal itself. Especially uncomfortble in the allowing for revalations.

“This is the growth of our humanity’s journey. What will you do NOW Goddess?”

We give up!

 

Ancestors Mandala

 

 

In this moment, I give up!  I surrender. I let go.  This is what the moment is calling for NOW and from this I am reminded that giving up IS being alive.

To be alive is a birth rite that we all embody.  Embody this rite; show up, be accountable and present. Being present, most of all, is the acknowledgment of being alive.

WE GIVE UP AND WE ARE ALIVE!!

 

 

Birthing it easy

October 15, 2012

Birthing  Easy
October 14, 2012
As we approach and enter this time in humanities evolution, the cosmos and prophecies of potent spiritual cultures say that we are stepping into our fullest potential of who we are to become. All that we aspire to be and want to bring to our children, our communities and the world is happening now. This is the time when what no longer serves us must be let go. For if not, our true essence of who we are that is emerging with great force to LIVE, will emerge with more discomfort.

Sometimes I think I may have taken on more than I can handle and get tired of being part of the “strong and inspiring” dream club. Doing life my way and out of the box only to follow my heart’s desires and Spirits calling ***breathe*** is the only way I continue to find the peace within.

How do we find the endurance that called us to the dream we are meant to meet?

Let us make it easy on ourselves. Do our work to LET IT GO. Walk into nature and appreciate the beauty of life. Seek support from someone who may simply hold your head on their shoulder and let you cry. Light a candle and take a bath. Do something wonderful for ourselves!!!
Seek the silence between the beats and pray, meditate, walk and listen for the stillness.

Peace Within~18" elk hide, cedar hoop, sterling silver, abolone shell

Peace Within~18″ elk hide, cedar hoop, sterling silver, abalone shell

This is the Peace that is born from letting go.

Drum Medicine

May 26, 2012

Maria Theresa in reverance to the Cedar for her drum hoop

I recently traveled to Mexico to sit, journey and remember my true potential.  In the months preceding, fear had taken me and thrown me into submission….a place where I cried out for help to never return.  While in Tequisquiaspan, Traditional Plant Medicine carrier,  Maria Theresa Venezuela, became my guide and guardian as I embarked on a journey to clear a deep seeded fear that has plagued me and others from fully becoming our authentic selves and living our birth right as passed down through our lineage.  Ceremonies of Sweat Lodge and Plant Medicine gave way to profound life changing events which occurred within me  and, there is no mistake, within  all of humanity as well.  For I believe, we are each a reflection of our humanity and all of life.

Rosario Sarria and her new birth

“The Drum beat begins and a connection to the beat of Mamma, to  Humanity and, to Pappa create a sound wave vortex that leads us to the sound between the beats and other realms.  Webs are woven and then the web begins to expand into the fifth dimension as it forms into a bridge, a tunneling spiral igniting a momentum to touch the Celestials and bore deep into the Earth at the same time.  The ground shivers and shakes as bolts of lightning shoot up out of the Earth acknowledging the light beam of love we have sent her.  Colors and swirls of light spin in and around our heads as the Spiraling Infinity soars to the Heavens and down into the Earth as our hearts remain to be the point of conception.”

“The time is now  to step into our fullest potential of power in this lifetime.

Come!!! Be  in Ceremony (celebration) of being all that you can be.  Drum Medicine!!

on the steps of the Temple of Sun, Teotihuacan


Do not be fooled.  This BIG THING can look like anything even if it’s as simple as re-learning how to walk on the Earth with a confident stride.  Embrace with Gratitude to be alive.

remembering how to walk again


Reality or Projection

January 2, 2012

I have just spent the past four weeks in the North East.  A very dense and populated landscape of urban life with pockets respite along the Long Island Sound and small suburb parks.

Upon my arrival, it seemed that there was a mass of zombie like energy glazed upon the faces and bodies of those whom I encountered and the dense heaviness of  darkness of winter weighed thick in the air.  A big contrast to the desert in the South West full of sunlight and winds of cleansing change.  Bright and fresh.

Daily practice of yoga, meditation and salt scrub showers kept my Spirit light yet as time grew closer to the Winter Solstice on December 21st and my birthday on December 23rd, my shadow grew and began to weigh me down.   Dragging my shadow along for the inevitable ride, I sought out a place of refuge, a metaphysical bookstore.  This is where my journey back to the LIGHT began.

I was invited to a ceremony that was to be held in New York City facilitated with the traditions and medicines that called to my heart for the last decade, the Apache and the Huichol.  Spirit orchestrated the timing, as Spirit always does and on New Years Eve I found myself in a Tipi in a small park in the Bronx.  All time and space disappeared as the fire was tended, songs and prayers were sung and the Sacred was revered authentically in a Good Ways.

The next morning, on January 1, 2012, the Sun was bright and warm (unusual for this area this time of year).  I soaked more Light into my already open and filled Heartspace  on the 12th floor balcony of a highrise apartment building.   Greeted by Hawk, the message came from the question:

Is this glorious sun shiny day a projection of the Light that is in my Heart?  Are we that powerful?

Lighting up the City, Stamford CT 1/2/12

“We Come Together with All that is Good.  We hold Sacred Space in ways that have been passed on to us and for the future generations.  We have entered a time where we have the potential to manifest our true heart’s desires in an instant.   Believe in the power of  your Spirit.  The journey is what you choose it to be.  The Spirits of those who came before and those to come join you in Divine Orchestration.”

In that moment, in awe of the view before me; the city skyline showered by a bright Sun,  it occurred to me that scene before me might be a Projection of my own current experience….so much so that nature and the elements responded with a glorious, warm, sun shiny day.

I began to wonder, is this the simple Reality of a Beautiful day?  Or is this a Projection of the immense Light that is shining from our Hearts?

Strength and Saddness

March 26, 2011

I am grounded
in my power
Leadership
Family
Goddess

"Strength and Saddness" photo by Gabriel

Confident in
my transparency
my authenticity
my truth

Then…..
those moments
of sadness
for those
I am in love
whom cannot meet me

I humbly
honor their journey
my power
my acceptance
of what is.

Transition or Evolution?

January 2, 2011

January 1, 2011
Being on sabbatical and with all the recent holidays, this year I found little resonance to the typical activities and celebrations.  I relied on my muscle testing to guide me to be ok with just staying home with my kitties, curling up in a warm bed and watching a good movie. When I’m done with the movies, sometimes I just lie in bed allowing my mind to quiet and emotions to do whatever they do all with no judgement only allowance.

I fall asleep and wake up rested and bright.

One thing did occur to me in those moments of allowing. It seems that I have been in transition for seven years now. Growth and evolution… the journey….is it all one big giant transition?

Happy Solstice and as the world at large celebrates a New Year in Gregorian timing, I to will jump on the wagon for a ride in celebration for happiness, harmony, prosperity and Love.  From what I’ve been hearing it’s a ride into a New World of Peace and Coming Together.

Rock painting evolution and prophecy by Bear Rock Curing Magician, October 2010

Hopi pigments on Granite Rock

Hopi pigments were used for this painting which is located in Joshua Tree.  A desert tortoise made her presence as I sat in contemplation after I finished the painting.  The symbols represent my personal yet universal perspective and journey of this time in our evolution.